This is much longer than a normal blog, but it is what came out as I was journaling this morning. I didn’t want to cut it down because I felt that this is what God laid on my heart so this is what I should say.
I have struggled with my weight all of my life. In my adult life, I have to take medication which has a side effect of weight gain. However, a lot of it is because of my bad habits and the bad foods that I put into my body as well as my lack of physical activity.
I have had successes. In college I lost 50 pounds, but I gained it back then more. In the early 2000s I lost 90 pounds over a couple of years. But, over time for many reasons, the weight crept back on again till this summer when I realized I was 12 pounds away from my maximum weight. I have gone to dieticians/nutritionists in the past and am going now, but I know what I need to do. Putting it into practice and making it a part of my daily routine and finding the will power and self-discipline to sustain it is my problem.
Over the last 6 months I lost 26 pounds. That is not as fast as I would like, but it is progress. I even lost 8 pounds over the holidays. But, this last month, I have struggled with the same 6 pounds up and down. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I have a goal and I want it really badly, so why can’t I get it together and lose the weight?
The nutritionist said to reach my desired weight, I needed to lose 109 pounds. I had already lost some before I began seeing him. I have mini goals and I was seeing progress and had momentum, but then it stopped. I have prayed about it many times before, but today I sat down and wrote my prayer asking for God’s assistance in helping me reach my goal. I hope that it can help you as well.
Thank you Lord for Jesus Christ your son who died on the cross to save us from our sins. Please, Lord, forgive me for my sins. I realize that gluttony is a sin and it is something that I am guilty of and want to change, but I need your help.
Dear Lord, help me to get my self-discipline, self-control, and personal restraint back. Please help me to focus on my goal of getting healthy and losing weight and toning my body. Please help me find the time to cook so that I can control what goes into my food and my body rather than eating foods that are bad for me such as fast food or over- indulging at restaurants.
When I do go out, please help me to make wise choices and not over-eat because it tastes good. Help me to think of food as something I need to live rather than something to be consumed while celebrating or using it to comfort me. Please help me to find my comfort and consolation in you.
Please help me to want to eat healthily because it is satisfying and tastes good and makes me feel better both physically and emotionally as well as giving me more energy. Please help me to remember that all of the extra chemicals and additives and processed food make me fat. Please help me to consume natural foods with simple ingredients closest to the way that you created them. Help me not to crave fats, sweets, and salt because eating them makes my body crave them more and it becomes a perpetual cycle of bad eating and cravings.
Please give me the desire, energy, and time to work out and exercise even when I don’t want to. I always feel better and refreshed after I do exercise even when I think I won’t. Please help me not to injure myself, but to challenge my body and not reach a plateau. Please help me to vary my workouts so that I do not get bored, and so that I work all of my muscles.
Please help me not to worry about what I look like while I am exercising and help me not to compare myself to the others I see. Help me not to be embarrassed or ashamed of how I let myself get this way and help me remember that I am doing something about it now.
Please help me remember that most of my weight gain was my fault, but that there have been other factors such as medication and health issues that have contributed to it. Please help me not to be too hard on myself and feel guilty. Help me to remember that it took a while to get here and that it will take a while to get back to where I want to be.
Please help me not to give up or lose focus, but to have faith in myself. Please help me to regroup and begin again when I do overindulge or have setbacks or don’t meet my own expectations. Please don’t let me give up or get frustrated, but help me to see where I went wrong.
Help me to see the results of my efforts on the scale and in the way my clothes fit. Please help me to be happy with myself and love myself throughout this journey and always, no matter what my weight is. Help others to look past the extra pounds and to see me for who I am rather than what I look like.
Please, Lord, help me to do these things and help me remember 1 Corinthians 6:19: “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.”
Help me to treat my body well and make it the best it can be. Help me to be the best version of myself and honor the body you gave me. Help me to be heathier so that my physical infirmities will lessen or go away completely. Help me to treat my body in a way that will glorify your creation of me and prevent me from destroying myself.
Please Lord, help me remember “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13) Please remind me of 1 Corinthians 10:13 “No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.”
When I have moments of weakness, temptations, or self-loathing, help me to seek you and pray so that you can encourage me. Help me to remember that you love me no matter what and that you are there to help me as I work to better myself.
Please help me find friends and family to encourage and support me and notice my hard work and celebrate my successes so that I do not lose hope of reaching my goals. When people do not notice, it makes me think my hard work is for nothing. Please help people not to cut me down or point out how much more I have to lose/ how far I still need to go, but help them tell me they are proud of what I have accomplished. Please help me to use that encouragement and momentum to know I can succeed and keep working at it.
Please help me remember that I am setting a bad example for non-believers and that they will wonder why I do not have my life together and why I seek food rather than seeking God to fulfill me. Help me keep Romans 14:17 in mind: “For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit” and Matthew 4:4 “Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”
I hope that this prayer will help others too, as we petition you to help us. Please let us know that we are not alone and that a lot of people have this same struggle. Please help us know that it does not mean we are bad people, but help us know that we can make a better version of ourselves by becoming healthy with our diet, exercise, emotional health, and body image.
Please help me have a shapely body that gets me back to where I want to be and helps me feel better about myself and appear more attractive to others as I try to find a marriage partner. Help me to know that there was a time and a reason for me to be this way, but that I do not have to be this way anymore.
Help me to know the role that I played in getting to this point and that it is up to me to do something and change my habits in order to live up to my potential. Let Hebrews 12:11 keep me going. “No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.”
Thank you, Lord, for all you do for me and for the many blessings that you have bestowed upon me. Please hear my prayer.