It’s occurred to me several times that I never updated my blog after I found a job. In early August my site visits paid off and I was asked back for an interview. It was not for a job that I was seeking, but was what my background is. I was going to have to quit my sponsor program and use a different program in order to take the job, but then my sponsor program said they could certify me after all. So, I got to do what I wanted in the beginning when I set out on this wild journey 2 years ago.
Everyone says the first year is challenging, so I was prepared going in knowing it. Or at least I thought I was. I’ve struggled with budgeting my time on and off the clock and the day to day is even more challenging than I anticipated. I feel like I am beginning to get the hang of things though. My attitude is positive and my mood is good, although I have had a couple of days where I wondered if I had done the right thing.
The commute is longer than I thought it would be. When I first went there, I had been driving all around dropping off resumes then went a few more places before going home. I was too nervous then giddy before/after the interview to note the travel time. I didn’t realize that although Map Quest says it’s only 25 miles, that my best time is usually 50 minutes each way. It’s an easy drive that I use to listen to the radio and think about what I need to do and on the way home, I use the time to talk to friends on the phone.
I’ve had to step back from some of my activities like Trivia and helping with the youth at church. It seems like my free time is so short that I struggle to find time to relax & do chores and errands. I missed church a few times trying to prepare for the upcoming week, then once I got out of the habit, it was hard to make myself go back. I’ve been the last two weeks and started a new Bible study, so I’m hoping I can fill the spiritual void I accidentally self-inflicted on myself.
I’ve never really liked Thanksgiving because I seem to miss the point. I get caught up in the cooking and cleaning before and afterwards and think it’s a huge waste for a 30 minute meal. It also reminds me of the season my first real boyfriend dumped me and how I still don’t have a significant man in my life. However, this year I am going to make a conscious effort to be grateful for all the blessings in my life rather than stressing about the preparation and cleanup.
I was reminded by the youth assistant when I told her I wouldn’t be serving in 2014, that God gave me what I wanted. I was faithful and He has been faithful to me. He provided for me when I took a leap of faith and left my job without having a job lined up. He provided for me when I had no income and provided me with another job before my savings ran out. I’m doing what I always wanted to do. It’s harder than I thought it would be, but it is rewarding. I’m hoping I can make a difference. I still have a lot to learn and want to better myself in my craft. I can only go up and get better from here. I do think I made the right decision. I may try to find something closer to home next year, but I am glad to have this opportunity and pray I can do it well.
I hope that you will find the time to step back and take a moment to be thankful too. Best wishes as we move into the holiday season.